Things I'm leaving behind in 2022

Things I'm leaving behind in 2022...
 

1. Letting important words stay stuck in my throat instead of saying them.

2. Forgetting to ask myself (and often!) "what do I want?" 

3. Falling into the trap of believing that if life is hard I'm doing it wrong and I should get low or small until I find my way through it.

Life was utterly amazing in 2022 and it was also hard as shit sometimes.

Some of why it was hard was because I let words get stuck in my throat instead of voicing them-- to myself, to people I loved, to the universe... nothing in particular, just a pattern of being scared to say the thing that I knew needed to be said.

Some of why it was hard was because I forgot to ask myself what I wanted in the midst of lots of change and transition.

But also, some of why I forgot these things was because life was hard. It's hard to stay "your best self" when you're trying to stay afloat and figure things out. And frankly, I'm tired for judging myself for not being "my best self" every damn day.

Because that doesn't mean we're doing it wrong.

We're human. 
Not freaking robots, or self help gurus who love and light away our humanity.

Too often we hide when we're in the middle. We tell ourselves that we can come back out when things feel easier. But that perpetuates the idea that life isn't supposed to be hard sometimes, that some things aren't fucking hard.

I'm not here for that kind of bullshit.

Life was hard and beautiful in 2022. And the hard has shepherded in far more growth, reflection, and joy than any of the beautiful moments. And I wouldn't change a single bit of that.

I'm clear about what I'm leaving behind, because of where I've been-- the beautiful and the hard.

Let's celebrate all of it, friends.

And tell me.
What are you leaving behind?

With love,
Victoria

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